Frozen and pathethic

Everytime I hear a woman's voice, I freeze. Everytime he shows me something on his phone and a wa notification arrives, I try to read who's it from and what it says...

Which is pathetic, I know...

I already know he has "cyber" girlfriends... We've already opened the relationship because of that... 

But I have no one else...

I still feel something sweet when my crush sends me a message but I know there is nothing there, so it's useless and empty...

I'm useless and empty...